Hi! My name is Marissa Ann Mayer and I am 20 years old. I am a proud fighter of depression, and anxiety and here's a little more of my story...
Starting from the beginning...
I was born 8 weeks early on August 4th, 1999. I was 3lbs 12oz and unfortunately born to two alcoholic parents who were unfit to raise me. After staying in the hospital for a few months, I was placed into the foster care system. Because I'm half Native American, Dan and Leah Mayer were not able to adopt me without the termination of my biological parents' rights. Of course, because they had the power to do so, they chose not to terminate them. So after many years of court, my new parents were given legal guardianship, which is basically the same thing. Of course, being born to parents who were alcoholics and had their own mental health issues meant I was also at risk.
When did you start noticing your depression/anxiety?
I started to notice something change in me around 7th grade. For a long time I thought it was just me being over-emotional. I had been bullied since 2nd grade and struggled especially in middle school. I didn't always fit in and I cried more than normal. Little things, such as being called names or laughed at, hurt me pretty bad. It was also during this time that I started shutting my biological family out of my life (they had visitation with me each month and I was no longer comfortable with it). I questioned my faith and questioned why my parents didn't try harder to keep me. I wondered where God was.
Thankfully, through my time at a private Lutheran high school, I came to realize that God is ever present. He didn't abandon me even on my darkest of days. He had blessed me with a family, friends, and His everlasting love and grace which is more than sufficient.
Today, I am a student at University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee studying music education. I hope to become a high school band director after graduation.