About Me!

Hi! My name is Marissa Ann Mayer and I am 18 years old. I am a proud fighter of depression, and anxiety and here's a little more of my story...

Starting from the beginning...

I was born 8 weeks early on August 4th, 1999. I was 3lbs 12oz and unfortunately born to two alcoholic parents who were unfit to raise me. After staying in the hospital for a few months, I was placed into the foster care system. Because I'm half Native American, Dan and Leah Mayer were not able to adopt me without the termination of my biological parents' rights. Of course, because they had the power to do so, they chose not to terminate them. So after many years of court, my new parents were given legal guardianship, which is basically the same thing.

Only years later we were blessed with my brother, Kenny. His birth mother had scheduled an abortion, but two days before her appointment, her water broke and my brother was born 16 weeks early with cocaine. He is most definitely a gift from God. My miracle brother.

When did you start noticing your depression/anxiety?

I started to notice something change in me around 7th grade. For a long time I thought it was just me being over-emotional. I had been bullied since 2nd grade and struggled especially in middle school. I didn't always fit in and I cried more than normal. Little things, such as being called names or laughed at, hurt me pretty bad. It was also during this time that I started shutting my biological family out of my life (they had visitation with me each month and I was no longer comfortable with it). I questioned my faith and questioned why my parents didn't try harder to keep me. I wondered where God was.

Thankfully, freshman and sophomore year were a little better. It was only this year that my depression came back and truly hit me hard. It was triggered mostly by my parent's divorce and the stress of school (junior year isn't easy!). But I am currently seeing a counselor which is helping a ton, along with writing this blog!

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