Thursday, July 7, 2016

The "Upside" of Living With Depression

Good evening everyone! I've been having some issues with writer's block lately...

For an update on myself, I guess I've been doing okay. I'm still suffering from the heartbreak, but I've been keeping busy enough to keep it to a minimum. I find my depression to be slight, it comes and goes as it pleases depending on the day. I'm currently not taking any of my herbal supplements either. I'm also getting super excited for my trip to New Orleans (from July 15th-20th). Anyways, that's the update on me! So here's tonight's read: The "Upside" of Living With Depression

Whenever we hear the word "depression" it's easy to quickly think of the terrible mental illness that plagues a huge chunk of the human race. To those of you who have read my blog before, I'm sure you have learned a lot about the scary and dark days I face. However, it is possible to put a positive light on living with this mental illness and I think these are a handful of things I have learned and have been reminded of along the way.

1. You finally understand who your friends really are...

I know I've said it before, but I've lost a lot of people throughout my journey with depression. Some people just aren't sure how to handle me, and I guess I can understand that. At the same time, I've found a lot of great people who are actually there for me when I need them. I've gained some great relationships with people and lost some toxic ones.

2. The simple blessings...

When I get stuck in a period of really rough depression, it's the little things that can really help me. Whether it's an extra long hug from my mom or getting the right cup of coffee, depression has opened my eyes to the littlest of blessings and made me more appreciative of the world I live in.

3. I can see just how strong I've become...

While I use the word "weak" to describe how I feel a lot, I know that it's temporary. I've lived for 16 years, and while I've attempted to cut it short a few times, I've somehow survived everything in my past. Wait, scratch that. I know how I's through Christ! And that leads me to number 4...

4. ...yet I can see my reliance on Christ...

It'd be silly to think I've gotten this far on my own. I got here through falling...countless times. Falling straight into my Father's arms and asking Him to pick me back up. Each time, He has carried me a little further, and then placed me back on my feet when I'm ready to walk again. Always nearby, I know I can rely on my Lord and Savior to guide me through this crazy route of life.

5. I've learned to love just a little bit bigger...

There are a lot of times when I find it hard to love myself, but somehow, I think I've learned a lot more about loving others. By living with depression, I can easily understand that the people around me are facing many different battles too! God has opened my heart more to the idea of loving because Christ first loved me. Of course, as I'm growing up, I've gotten a lot closer with my mom, who is a great example of what love looks like, as well as my little cousin, Emma. You can read more about them in: My Two Best Friends

6. I recognize stigma and want to fight it...

Stigma stands quite strong against mental illness. I didn't even know what it was until I faced quite a few of my own stigma experiences. It hinders many people from getting the help they need and one of my biggest hopes is that it can be eliminated from today's society. And that's why I'm so blessed to stand with organizations such as Project Semicolon, NAMI, MHA, and of course others who blog about mental illness. 

To summarize some of those points, and lead you to the greatest "benefit" of depression...I think it's safe to say that my faith continues to grow. Without it, I wouldn't be where I am today. I'm almost certain that I wouldn't even be alive. Each step of the way, I am reminded that prayer never ends, the blessings never end, and His love for me most definitely never ends. It's exciting to watch myself grow, and I thank all of you for helping me too, as I continue my journey as a depressed but blessed daughter of the King.

Another upside to my depression? Being a Christian blogger!
Much love, 
Marissa Mayer

Like this post? Read a similar one: The Beauty That Lies Beyond The Depression


  1. This is a really cool post. I hope you don't mind me borrowing your idea!

    1. Thank you! I'd appreciate it if you'd cite anything you pull from my post. :) Blessings!